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AwaY !!!!

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Rain pours outside my door..
It's thick drops knocking and scaring me more and more...
Many thoughts 're busying my mind..
I just realized that those feeling 're not so blind..
And that Ship is sailing and wont come back..
Crossing the widest ocean ,, Carrying my baby Jack...!!!

Leaving me here with your ghost so alone..
And I even can't reach your phone..
Acting like everything is so OK..
While you're so far away..
Love and Hate 're tearing my heart..
Drawing some faces in the art of art..
Calling some friends like last year..
Everything must be the same ,, Without you dear...!!

Like these black clouds moving with air..
Butterflies of your face're everywhere..
Surrounded with my blanket...Feeling safe some way..
Like your warm hug...on your last day..
Rain drops still making sweet noise..
Just like your sleepy voice...!!!

Some of your memories...and some of your lies..
With some of my longing to you..Bring tears to my eyes..
And I know I gave you a word...To never cry..
But Whil…

LonleY iS The Me......!!!

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Well.....
No One Can sTay Lonley....Forever...maybe from a time to time we go to our private world where we can be alone on our own....n sometimes not...!!!
Sometimes Surronded by people that know you but really they don't know a thing makes U lonley....why should I join in their stupid conversations ?? n also I can't just jumb n leave.....!!!
Some people thinks life is changing fast...But really they stay on their same spot whith their same thoughts n speechs....Uh!!! Like my lovely friend who always talk on the same subjects EVERYTIME..Can U imagine what 'd it be like listenin' to her talking the same but never mangin' to slap her fluffy face ???!!!
Well...For me when I feel that I really not on the mood or that I'll be bored I just rather to stay home n play some online games..!!!
I know this startin' ain't like me but I really feel like trapped in this world with this people that yah I l love very much but they're killing me...n NO I can't change…

Mid-Night....!!!!!!!!

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It was so magic-like to end this fast...
But it's too late to tell I'm hopin' it'd last..
As my clock announcin' mid-night..
Everythin' is so still..Beneath the full moon light..
Now everythin' is so different..
I feel so lonely,,,While you're so distant..
Everythin' has changed...And none is here to blame..
Really nothin' is the same...!!!!!!
Boy..Since the day you went away..
Nothin' feels at all ok..
With me..
Life is not like what it used to be..!!

Never thought that you can get that far..Never before..
Till I watched your heart walkin' out of my door..!!
So hard ?? So Bad ??..So painfull..Unfair..
How could you really break that stare..??!!!!
That golden bond conectin' our hearts..
How could you break it to so many parts..??!!!
Do you know ?? Do you trust ?? Do you believe ??
That I really didn't want you to leave..??!!!
Do you know how much you mean to me ??!!
I swear for me lettin' go wasn't easy...But could you see ??

Sweet angel..Don&…

Eventually

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Good things never last forever..
Though we once were together..
I'd never ask for more..
Till you walked out of my door..
I knew I'm just a sister...and a friend
But thought this was going to end..
I waited & waited..But couldn't see a sign..
But eventually I knew you'll never be mine...!!!
She's My girl...& I've all control..
But I didn't meant it to be this way at all..
Just a game I used yo play..
Till it fliped 180 on me that day..!!!
You knew You're my one..& it's my town..
Though you went & broke my heart..Destroyed my crown..
Different,,That what I thought..Somehow,,Someway..
But Eventually I knew..you wear glasses cause of my ray..
I don't know how to describe that feeling..When you stole my heart..
How you made me fall for you...From the start..
But amaizing how I didn't say "It's not fair"..
Actually it's amaizing how I really didn't care..
Just suddenly..I lost my interest in you..
Even though somedays breathing s…

Murdered By 2 .. .. ..

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Here U are....Falling for two..

Believing them both...Falling for true..

Giving them Ur heart is something bad to do..

WHY?? Why U believed...Though U knew..

Both are unfaithful...And soon they will go..

U believed in Them...And they tortured U in ways U never knew..

But U couldn't go over them...U wont do..

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Here U are again...Falling for two..

Falling for the dreams U never saw..

But let's talk in private....Between me and U..

Both were good...So good to U..

Both knew how to touch Ur heart....And pass it through..

They knew how to slip easily...When they are over U..

Silence..!!! U hate it...But U have nothing else to do..

Why U didn't complain,,urge....Tell them "STOP",,Both of U..?!

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Here U are...Feeling guilty,,,Feeling pain..

Crying Ur nights out....Again and again..

Loosing hope...U wish if U could die...

Rememebering their fake smiles...When they lie..

Missing them so much...U can't make another day..

Hating them…

My Name Was Sun….!!

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A sweet Rose in the park…
Been picked up in the dark..
A young Princess in the wood..
Thought everything will be so good…!!
Every time I look back..
I keep seeing my dead Jack..
Instead of moving on…I refuse to see..
Stuck in the past…That’s the truth of me…!!
Looking at my reflection on the wall..
Why do I care at all..??
If I can find you the way you found me..
Then I’d never set you free..
You’re my special angel..making me feel alright..
The shiny moon in my darkest night…!!
But I can’t be with you...I can’t fly..
I’m The Princess of Forests..Land is my high..
I can be the sun that gives you light..
So please don’t look at me..or you will loose your sight
I can be there always for you…Never pass my turn..
But these are your limits…Cause sometimes I burn…!!
Being my special one doesn’t need you to get in my heart..
Just be a part of my life…And I need that part…!!
It’s my pleasure to be the angel that guard your soul..
I can take your hands to heaven’s wall…!!!
People…. My name was sun..
Once…As the summe…

THE GREAT DAY..!!

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When I knew..
I Couldn't believe it's you..
I was so confused..Don't know what to do..
Would I even receive an invitation from you..??!
And unless..Should I go..??
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I put on my cool stuff like the day was mine..
My heart beating so fast..nothing seem to be fine..
My makeup was so simple..and I didn't care..
I just wanted to see you..and tell you it's not fair..
Cause you didn't choose me to share..!!
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When I entered that big lighting hall..
Wondering should I have a seat? Or just stand by the wall..?!
My teary eyes looking everywhere..
Everyone was asking "How Could She Dare"..??
Uh..I could see "Indian" passing me through..
That's "Spy Hard", and your sister with her kids too ..!!
Your young cousins were so spread..
I Know I was just looking like dead..
"Ugly Face" was trying to look pretty as much as she can..
I just couldn't believe that I'm standing on the wedding of my man..!!
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I could see all your friends,, The …

رسالة من تحت الماء

ن كنتَ صديقي.. ساعِدني..

كَي أرحَلَ عَنك..!

أو كُنتَ حبيبي.. ساعِدني..

كَي أُشفى منك..!

لو أنِّي أعرِفُ أنَّ الحُبَّ خطيرٌ جِدَّاً..

ما أحببتْ...

لو أنِّي أعرفُ.. أنَّ البَحرَ عميقٌ جِداً..

ما أبحرتْ...

لو أنِّي أعرفُ خاتمتي..

ما كنتُ بَدأتْ...!

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إشتقتُ إليكَ فعلِّمني..

أن لا أشتاقْ..!

علِّمني..

كيفَ أقُصُّ جذورَ هواكَ.. من الأعماقْ...

علِّمني..

كيف تموتُ الدمعة.. في الأحداقْ...

علِّمني.. كيفَ يموتُ القلبُ..

وتنتحرُ الأشواقْ...

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إن كنتَ نبيّاً..

خلصني من هذا السحرْ...

من هذا الكفرْ...

حبّكَ كالكفر.. فطهِّرني..

من هذا الكفرْ...

إن كنتَ قويَّاً..

أخرجني.. من هذا اليَمّ..

فأنا لا أعرفُ فنَّ العومْ..!

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الموجُ الأزرقُ في عينيك..

يُجرجِرُني نحوَ الأعمقْ..!

أزرقْ..

أزرقْ..

لا شيءَ سوى اللون الأزرقْ..!

وأنا ما عندي تجربةٌ..

في الحُبِّ .. ولا عندي زَورَق..!

إن كُنتُ أعزُّ عليكَ فَخُذ بيديَّ..

فأنا عاشِقَةٌ من رأسي حتَّى قَدَمَيَّ!!!

إني لأتنفَّسُ تحتَ الماء..

إنّي أغرقْ..

أغرقْ..

أغرقْ...

ChOOse

Whenever I hold U tight...
When I tell U " it's gonna be alright "...
When everytime U look and find me there...
Then when I whisper " I LOVE U DEAR "...
When U look into my eyes,,seeing its true...
That I'll always be the woman of U....
Baby,,Whenever U feel my touch...
And when I scream " I need U so much "...
When I call U every minute to make sure U're ok...
Just when I express my love into every single way...
Sweety,,When U rest on my heart at night...
Do U still think of me when we turn off the light..??????
Am I the Queen of Ur dreams,,always in Ur head...???!
Or do U wish if it was her....Instead??!!
When U stare at me and Ur eyes never wink..
Can U tell me about which one U think..??!!
How could I be the one holding Ur hand..??
And Ur soul is away with her..I can't understand...!!!!!!!
Baby,when U gaze in the space,,,making no sound..
Do U really wish if she could be the one around..???
Do U want her to be in my place..??!!
When U look at me...Do U se…

A Dear Friend •◘○

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We're the best of friends as we used to..
Always reading my mind & what passes through..
BUT..
I think I'm falling for you..
And you should never know..
I wont tell you,,
Cause I don't want you to go..
I'll keep my secret,,'ll never let it show
You'll never catch me stairing at you..
Never 'll feel my body tremble while I'm beside you..
Or even hear my heart beating just for you..
Never 'll see the joy that I feel whenever I see you..
Or the love that I'm hiding from you..
You'll never hear me whisper how much I miss you..
Just B'coz you should never know..!!
You're my best friend..& like that I'm gonna keep you..
To be a friend & just a "sis" thats what I'm going to..
Cause I don't wanna loose you..!!!!
I'll force my self to get over you..
I'll get it done..& my heart 'll pass it through..
And in no time I'll be back to the one you used to know..
And you wont feel a change..Cause from the start you d…

SOMEONE..

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Posted on my life & across my memory..
Someone 'll always be written on my history..
He just has to be there,
When I check out the clock...
Then I hear that voice,
When the secrets lock..
Whatever happens,,Whatever it takes
Always reminding me of my unforgiven mistakes..!!
Sometimes when I look for I never find..
It leads me to wonder if I turned blind..
But just I know when I hear that sound,
That he's there..& 'll always be around..!!
So scary when you look..So kind when you feel
With a gentle touch makes all your pain heal..!!
So sweet in sometimes..Sometimes he's not..
I hate him sometimes,,while in the most I miss him alot..
Someone has whole the world in the palm of his hand
But never cared about..I don't understand..
He was my dear & 'll be
Just someone for sure is made for me
Wherever he's I know we wont be apart..
Cause we're always linked heart to heart..
I don't know where you live now..Or where did you go..
But I'll always be chased by the gohe…

♦♦A Dream♦♦

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Do I need U..??
Of course I dO!!
Sweety, I lOve U sO bad..
U're my One,,U didn't knOw that??
U're the One..dOn't ask me whO..
Just maKe me sure that drEams do come trUe..!!
BUT fOr U I'm jUst A friend..
Who is gOing to stay this way till the end..!!!!
I dunnO why..?!
Always my heart leads me tO cry..
I had enough tears..ENOUGH being sad..
& really U're driving me mad..!!
It has tO be shaken..
The bOnd of sister & brother must bE brOken..!!
I dunnO hOw..?!
Or why did I fall fOr U nOw..
AlOt Of Questions I can't explain
I jUst dOn't wanna bE hUrt again..
It jUst happend..against my will..
I swear I tried to fight back..I can't tell
U're taking me to heaven every time U stare..
& Ur wOrds take me tO....I dunnO where!!!!!!!
SO please..can U bE mine..??!!
Can U make mE feel like everything'll be jUst fine?!
I knOw that's too much..& I'm asking alOt
But I can't stOp these feelings...As U can't stOp being HOT..!!☺☺

○○That's○ ○ME...○○

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Every sun rise..any water fall..
Any teary eyes..Every single soul..
Anything clear..& some of what people hide..
Every single dream that I keep inside..!!
Every empty space..
All reminds me that I've no one..no place
Even my dearest memories are gone..
Taking with them every thing I was hanging on..!
BUT NO..
I'm not alone..You should know
I'm just a girl who has a heart like a rock..
& its melting with every TIK from the clock..!!
Just someone who is surrounded by fools..
& used to break all the rules..!!
EVERYDAY..
& every second..in every way..
All are just the same
Don't point your finger,,I wont take any blame..
Just give me time & you'll see..
That not only you interesting in me..!!
I've multi-choises & I've to choose..
So sunshine, be careful not to loose..
Now..I can't promise you..
I've nothing to give..Or to do..!!
I'm just a girl from forests who wants to stay..
& you gonna meet me there..everyday..!!!

Hide..♥

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Okay...
Away so much to say
About how it felt on that day..
It's too hard to tell..
like being in hell
When I'll go out this shell..??!
How'd anyone understand..?!
That I just wanted to hold his hand..
To fly all over the world and never land
How'd I make it clear,,make it right..??
That I didn't mean to cheat or to cause a fight..
He was just my beloved on that night..!!
It took no time to start
But meant everything to my heart..
And I'd never wish us getting apart..!!
NO...
I didn't want him to go..
Cause from the start he shouldn't know..!!
That's why..
And I couldn't even deny..
Who'll stop my cry..?!
WORDS..if they could express what's inside..
I'wouldn't really start to hide..
But, the sun can't stop giving light..
I just choosed to never stay that close..
I knew maybe he doesn't feel the same..maybe he does..
Guess its not the way it goes..!!!
& I never heard about him again..!!