Throughout A Life

To all my beloved friends and family, One thousand apologies, With only a few days left for 2012, a year so far has been my favorite; I would like to send you a few gratitude words. I’m so thankful to have you all in my life, each and everyone of you, you make me feel blessed. I know my recent behaviors didn’t make me the best friend for most of you, and many of you stated this clearly that I’m changed, unfortunately, to the worst. I don’t ask more often like I used to be, I don’t reply messages and I NEVER call you back, in fact, I don’t call anyone at all –except those a few that I need them urgently to accomplish a task. I give so much promises that I cannot keep and I’m always busy, always busy specially on those special days for some of my special people, I was never there for them, just not available. The relationships I share with others are so sketched and rough. I know this might make you all feel that I don’t care, I know, I’m so sorry, but I do, I do care. And for

I know you will forgive, Whatever I do wrong. I know that you will listen, To the tiniest problem that I have. I'm sorry, For everything I did. I'm so sorry, For ever broken dream I shred. I know you will hold me, When I feel so alone. I know you will be there, When I'm broken and forgotten. I'm sorry, I know I abuse the facts I'm so sorry, For crawling every time I need you. It's like I'm a stone, Cause I know you will come. It's like I'm a stone, But I can't stand alone. I'm so sorry, For abusing your kindness. One thousand punches, Wont give me what I deserve. I do not deserve this mercy, I do not deserve this at all. Why the angel fell for a demon, I will never understand. In my evil ways full of sins, You remind me. That every sinner has a future, And every saint has a past.