A Broken Soundtrack

Lately,  I've been impatient, counting every second in every hour every day. 
Lately, I've been in a phase of disappointment,  where nothing matters .. nothing.  
Lately, I Woke up from a dream that I was not dreaming,  to face a world that I don't believe in. 
I've lost the reason why I'm here, and I'm so tired of searching.  I've got fed up of sleeping if waking up meant being in the same cycle, with no return.

And lately,  I've lost faith, lost faith in everything .. and everyone,  including myself. 
I realized it takes more than me to get what I need, its over my power to make myself happy .. as I thought I can.  

Lately,  I discovered not only that I was mistaken in every choice I made and I regret them all, but also that I only chose them because I had the option .. and ever since, I hated having the option. 

Lately, living in the same routine cycle made me realize that I don't want to go back,  and I'm scared of what is coming because I don't know what to expect. 

Lately,  I finally started to love the number 2, as I became sure it will always represent me, even if out of 2.

And lately, I've stopped believing in promises, in future .. and of course I lost all of my existing hope.
I gave up trying to get over him, in fact, I admit that I failed,  I failed to get him back as much as I Failed to move on. 

And I felt lonely, for the first time .. I'm alone .. surrounding with people, the wrong ones ..

Lately, I've changed a lot .. I don't laugh on what usually makes me happy, I don't cry on what usually hurts me .. I've become very shallow socially and I think that none deserves to get into my head ..

Lately, things have became clearer .. and I've chosen the path which I'm going to take .. the correct decision I hope!!


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