Throughout A Life

عارف ؟؟ .. أنا برضي ماشة .. و قريب كمان .. زيك ، لكني ما زيك .. ! إستعدادي هادىء ما عنده صوت .. بدون وداع .. ودموع و بدون ووعود .. برااحة براحة .. بلملم حاجاتي .. و بستف فيها .. زيك .. لكني برضي ما زيك ! شنطي ما مليتها هدوم ، و عطور وورق .. أبداً .. مع إنه حاجاتك كتيرة .. بس، أنا شنطي أكبر، و أتقل .. !! ما تستغرب .. وأسألني ليه ! لأنها فيها كل الحاجات الإنت حتخليها وراك .. أيوه .. كل الحاجات الما هاماك .. حأشيلها معاي .. كل الأحاسيس الحلوة، و الأيام .. كل الذكريات البيناتنا .. و الأحلام .. أيوه ! كل الهتش و الكرور دا .. حأشيله معاي .. !! و حأمشي .. زيك ، لكني برضي ما زيك ..  !! حأشيل معاي قصصنا، و كل الكلام .. كل كلامنا عن بكرا ، و بكرا تفتكر جاي ؟ غايتو ، كان جا ولا ما جا .. برضو حأشيلو معاي .. !! هي! و قربت أنسى .. الوعود .. !! حتى لما وعدتني بأنك حتعود .. ما مشكلة لو نسيتها .. حأشيل معاي كل الورود ! و أسماء أولادنا .. وبيتنا الكبير .. كل أماني الفرح .. و أيام زمان .. ش...

Starts with a smile, And ends with a goodbye hand shake ! Usually, It goes like this ! He says he’s leaving .. Leaving soon, Leaving the place where I belong, Leaving  here .. Happily, excitedly, packing, To leave here for good, Forgetting that “here” includes me as well ... !!! He’s planning, A plan for 1, I don’t fit in his plans .. Not in his future .. I wished him luck .. I crossed my fingers for his dreams to come true .. Seeing those teeth behind his sunshine smile worth a lot, Means so much, I'm ready to sacrifice everything to see it,  Even seeing his face every morning .. !!! But, it just stroke me that, Perhaps, perhaps,  His dreams can't stretch to contain 2 .. I told him to fly, High .. and high .. Go fulfill your heart .. Go show them what you’re capable of .. And me, I’ll always cover your back .. I’ll support you, From here .. From this very place that pushed you away, ...

Something is happening .. I can feel it I feel strange, I feel weird .. Heart pumping so fast, A 24 hours wide smile .. I started listening to songs I never imagined liking .. And most of all, I AM HAPPY ! I started to look forward for tomorrow, And many tomorrows to come .. My whole Climate is changed, And it keeps on changing, Day after day .. For no reason, or maybe there’s some .. I can’t tell .. It’s just happening Happening so fast that I stopped counting, I stopped wondering and thinking, I’m just letting it happen .. Despite all the warnings, The voices in my head that telling me to stop.. I just ignore, I paint all those red flags with different colours, And decide to take the risk, to enjoy it as long as it’s here As long as he’s here .. !!! I started to wait by the phone, I wait .. and wait, Then my heart skips a beat, once I see his name on my screen .. then, no matter what plans I have, no matter who I’m with...

It’s the day of mini smiles that warm your heart It’s the day of sweet compliments that make your day counts .. It’s the day when everything makes you grateful, for your own existence .. And theirs .. When you look around, reviewing, and all you can see is  your life opening up Opening so many doors .. But, with life remaining busy and so many other distractions you have to deal with .. You realize, this will never be through .. In fact, everything has just started .. Don’t let the temptations drag you their way .. Don’t go floating alone, away from what really matters .. and who really matters … Their time is now ! Soon, you’ll realize the power of “We”.. When “Our” is dragged between “His” and “Mine” .. Time won’t be your precious property anymore .. When your all valuable moments should be –happily- awarded to them .. You’re so full of enthusiasm, happiness .. Your smile will almost tear up your face … But, you don’t care .. You’ve made it halfway ...