Throughout A Life

How could you say goodbye to someone , Who means the world to you .. ?? I didn’t .. I just walked away .. !!! But , it did hurt me .. It hurted me so much for the fact that it didn’t hurt me at all .. I felt nothing .. Weird enough I didn’t even cry .. I wondered , I used to miss you every single moment , in everyday .. I just wondered how could I walk a life without you .. !!! It crossed my mind .. I remembered when you promised to be my hero .. And to watch sunset together .. You promised to always be by my side .. And I promised to wait … !!! Then I laughed .. Oh , I laughed so hard .. Realizing that I never managed to see you for real .. Baby , we never met .. We never touched .. You never saw my favorite dress , Never smelled my favorite perfume , Never saw the way I walk , or how I talk , Never even touched my hair .. I used to ask myself every night .. “How does he smell ?” “How does it feel to be next to him ?” “How does it feel to hold his hand...

الـحـزن مـلا كـل شــى أســأل دمـعــة نـازلـة عـلـى وشـى و ذكـريـات ذابـلـة رافـضـة بـعـدك تـنـمـحـى أشــواقـا نـيـرانـا قـربـت تـنـطـفـى مـشــوار ســراب مـكـتــوب عـلـى أحــلامـى بـعـدك يـنـمـشـى و يــا كـل شـى كــيـفـن صـبـحـت فـجـأة ولا أى شـى .. ؟؟ و الـحـزن بـقـى فـى كـل شــى ************ غـطـى الـسـواد كـل الـنـواصـى و الـزقـايـق و الـبـيـوت يـا نـسـمـة فـى عـز الـهـجـيـر يـا ضـحـكـة الـطـفـل الـصـغـيـر يـا شـمـعـة ضـاويـة .. فـى لـيـلـة الـيـوم الأخـيـر كــيــفــن تــفــوت .. ؟؟ كـيـفـن تـخـلـى حـكـاوبـنـا ديـك بـاكـر تـمـوت .. ؟؟ و لـــيــه تـمـوت .. ؟؟ و يــنــا الـوعـود .. ؟؟ لـيـه حـرمـتـنـا مـن يــومـا تـقـرر فـيـو نـعـود .. ؟؟ يـا شـمـس دافـيـة لـمـا الـكـون اتـمـلا بـالـبـرود لــيــه الـصـدود .. ؟؟ بـعـدك الـخـوف بـيـن كـل فـرحـة بـانـى الـسـدود و الـحـزن مـا لـيـو حـدود

I promised myself I will never cry , If you left me .. I promised I will never ask why , Or try to make us be .. When my well is near to dry , We’re there in the deep sea … !!! And I promised .. Promised I will move on , If you left me behind .. But that didn’t turn out so well , As hard as I tried … !!! I once swore to never fall in love , And to protect my heart , never be blind .. But I broke my promise , And fell for you .. Life was perfect , You were too indifferent , I opened my heart for you .. And when you left me , You let me spill all over the floor , Breaking every good thing in me .. Watching you walk out of my door … !!! But … I didn’t cry , I felt nothing at all , Nothing could save me from my die .. No one could catch me from my fall ... !!! I was determined to keep my last promise .. Then , after a while , I broke down .. After I closed your file , I finally did cry .. I cried so much .. But , I swore my self .. Never again to fall in love .. But , like all my previous ...