Throughout A Life

Yesterday, I was there with them.. We were laughing, playing or even fighting Then when it was time to go to sleep I said goodbye to them, and promised to meet tomorrow Just to continue what we had been doing And when I woke up. I didn't find them here They just were gone.. I kept screaming…WHERE ARE YOU?? But still didn't hear any answer They were a page in my life book...Which I turned over Don't know why they went...But I know they're not here now Some are just names, and some I don't remember Some are just faded with the dust of the past I knew them very well...And shared a good or even bad memories with All I want to know now is are they still alive??, maybe not And if they're happy about what they got If they're feeling pain And'll we ever meet again?? Do they still remembering me, and our times When we did good things...as well as crimes I still have their pictures, voices and stories on my head I just want to ask about them for a last time For th...

Days... And some other new ways... With time,, I'll prove that what I did wasn't a crime !! Just B'coz some thoughts were busying my mind... Never thought that such a lie 'll make me blind... I don't know when or how..know nothing about But my heart is strong,,'ll move on no doubt.. It happened in a matter of a day,, and took no time,,, just to fade away..!! It's my mistake..can't blame you B'coz from the start you shouldn't know A heart I stayed awake just waiting for,, But after that night I didn't do it any more..!! B'coz I kept praying all that night.. That when a new day starts,everything 'll be alright.. I had feelings that I never knew.. But no matter how,I forced my self to let go.. I was sure there's a queen in your heart.. But why you told me in the day its getting to start.. The same day I wanted to tell you,,just wondering how.. Found you there screaming "SHE'S WOW"....!!!!! I might be shocked..but didn...

بين طيات السحاب..دفنته عدت،، بين صفحات الورق وجدته.. وسيما ساحرا،، بقلب من ورق لم أعلم ماهو إلا بعد أن تعلمت ألأرق.. كنت طفلة صغيرة..لا أعرف كيف اللعب رأيته...فتعلمت كيف أحب!! في تلك الجلسة البرية...ذات مساء أحسست كأنه القمر،،،هو مصدر ألأضواء كان في كل شئ رجل...لا بل رجال أذاق قلبي مرارة الأشواق و الترحال تساءلت دموعي يوما "أتراه يعود" ؟؟! بل السؤال...هل حقا هو موجود ؟؟! هل هو بشر مثلنا.؟.! لا بل ملاك طبع و نفذ على قلبي حكم الهلاك جاوبتني الأمطار..و حفيف الشجر جاوبتني الصحراء..و غياب القمر جاوبني الليل الحالك،،الزلازل و الأعاصير و كلهم أجمعوا على حرمة ما يصير...!! قررت البحث عنه..في كل مكان سألت عنه الأحياء و الأموات...و خيال الإنسان أين هو..؟؟ و أين ذهب..؟؟ حتى أصابني اليأس و الملل و التعب فسمعت صدى صوت...صوت بعيد كان يبشرني بأن اليوم عيد..!! URL_REMOVED حقا قد عاد..؟! أتراه قد علم أن أشواقي في إزدياد..؟! فصرت أجري،،و أحفر الأرض بحثا أتلفت حولي و أصرخ جهرا وجدته أمامي...و ياله من منظر ماهو و ماذا حدث..و من أي مصدر!! فصرخ قلبي هناك شئ مريب.. لم يبدو كما عهدته..هذا حقا غريب أي...

دا خوف ولا برد...؟ ما قادرة افهم هذه المسألة جسمك ينزل تحت الأرض و روحك تطلع فوق السما ما بكفر ولا شي بس قالقاني الحاجة دي العشت بقلبو سنين قاعد يتغمس جوا الطين ما تخاف عتمة القبور روحك حتضوى نور حأحفر حولك سور حأكون حارسة القبور يوم الغبت القمر غاب ختو فوقك أكوام تراب كانو لى قلبي أكوام عذاب وشك أبيض مافيو لون و هو الكان مفتح ورد يدك باردة زى التلج و هي الكانت بتاخد البرد وحياتك حيجى اليوم نطلع فيهو أنا و أنت فوق على دنيا ما بعدا دنيا و أسألك إيه رأيك فيا..؟! و تقول ليا بحبك...و تقول ليا بحبك بحبك أنا لى سابع سما

لماذا كل هذا الخوف...يا عزيزي لماذا الدموع و الحزن يا عزيزي ؟؟ اني انسانة أحس و أشعر مخلوقة لأنسى و أذكر اني مثل باقي النساء...أحب و أعشق اني معك الان فلا تقلق ***************** لقد رأيت مابك قبل أن تراه و عشت بدونك أسوأ حياة انتظرت بصبر متى تتكلم و اني أموت كلما رأيتك تتألم أرى عيناك ترجواني أن أعفو أراهما حولي و أمالك تخبو أحس بخوفك مني و من حبي أتريد المزيد ؟؟...ألا يكفيك قلبي ؟؟ كلما لامست يدي يداك كلما نظرت لعيناك اني أسمع قلبي يرد عليك بل أسمعه يصرخ..."خذني اليك و لكنه يتحطم ألف مرة عندما يرى انهمار دموعك المرة و قبل أن أهم بمسحها من عليك تسابقني اليها يديك و أراك تركض بعيدا بعيد لتحفي ألمك الشديد ************** و لكن لماذا...؟؟ هل جربت اخباري بهذا...؟؟؟ هل حاولت مرة النظر في عيني...؟؟؟ هل أحسست يوما بلمسات يدي...؟؟؟ هل زرتني مرة في الأحلام ؟؟؟؟ لا مستحيل...لأني لا أنام أقضي ليلي مع القمر المنير أشكيك له..و ما فعلت بقلبي الصغير أوتعلم ما كان جوابه لكل سؤال...؟؟؟ أنك دائما تقول ما لم يقال أخبرني أنك تناجيه ليلا تشكو بعدي له...و ترجوه خيرا فيالسخرية القدر عاشقان...وسطهما القمر...

It's almost 3 am...and I'm still awake.. Thinking if I made a big mistake.. But believe me I don't mean to drag it on Just it seems to me that I'll be alone.. I learned how to be strong...I wont cry All I'm trying to do is figure out "Why"..?? You were a devil in a shape of a man.. Taught me how to believe in love...never thought I can But I've always knew it deep inside.. It was so clear on your face...However you try to hide I know why you are here...and what are you trying to do..!! Why you are doing this...and instead of who.. You kept mentioning him every time...In every call.. You was trying to get me hurt again...That's all.. I should never believe what you said bout you are a grown up man.. And all that you wanted to do is finding your own woman.. And how you put that clear,,,that I'm your one.. You said it immediately...That's not how it's being done..!! No introductions...No pre-act.. But you knew I wouldn't refuse it...In...

Stupid Rose...Why you cry ?? He might be honest...May Jack didn't lie..!! You wish if you knew...If he said Goodbye.. But you woke up to find he's not there...and it hurts to die.. And now its all over...He's gone.. You can't do anything after its all done.. You wish If you can forget all what you faced.. But darling...destiny can't be replaced.. Now in this hot summer...Under the sun's ray.. It's all so quite...Like a perfect sunday.. You sitting inside your forest...In that corner there.. Under that huge tree...Wishing If he could be here.. Every creature saw you kept wondering...What's going on..?? They don't know how much you're afraid...don't want to die alone.. Stupid Rose...You lost him,,no more thinking.. Don't know If it's braveness or stupidity to watch him die...Watch him sinking.. Now your dear Jack is so far away.. You realized that when you stared at the empty space one day.. And all you did was to go away...What a stupi...

I've never seen someone so stupid like you Stupid Rose...you're in everything you do.. You miss him to death...Why you didn't say..?? We all know he's dead,,in a different way In the way that he still alive in your heart.. But why you let it happen from the start..?? Should you fall in his love on that day..?? Wish if you were a little brave to beg him to stay Stupid Rose...Why you got inside the Titanic..?? And even though,,Why you fell to his magic..?? None can be him..none can love you like Jack You were his queen..Wishing if he could come back..? Then why you didn't pull him out if you dare..!! Or just why you didn't die with him if you care..!! You kept shaking and begging "Please don't die" Uh...at least why you didn't even try..??!! Why you never pull him close and hug him tight..?! He's your Jack..your life's light Now you gonna live whole your life in the dark You worth nothing without him,A dead Rose in a park It was the begin...

I wake up everyday.. So stressed and depressed in anyway.. Feeling bad in any part.. Guilty is eating my heart.. After washing and doing what people do.. I try to pray..but can't do so.. Cause every time I think I'm facing God.. I feel so ashamed of my self..like I'm not made of mud.. I say to myself may tomorrow 'll be better.. But inside I know that means never.. I dress up quickly and go to say hi.. to my parents,,also that'd be a goodbye.. My father gives me a ride..what a gentleman.. I'd reply his favors,,If I can.. I go to my college..and sit to remember alone in that cool winter of december.. Some minutes later,people start to show.. Everyone try to be cool..what a jerks that I know.. Some chatting and laughing before the lecture begins.. and I thank god when the bell rings.. Doing my best to understand what the teacher is talking about.. But after any word he says..I feel a big doubt.. After sleeping a little..& answering some calls.. I feel in dange...

I knew its impossible.. At the first time I knew its possible.. It's something hard to get... and when you do,,its difficult to forget... Something get suddenly in our hearts.. Leading us to break in 1000 parts.. Taking control of your mind and soul... No No,,,,taking control of you all... Who are they...it never depend.. Any way it takes you to the corner of the end.. It makes you like a crazy man... who is trying to fly,,though he knows he never can... Leads your heart to beat so fast.. Maybe causing your death at last.. I don't know why or what all it's about... It's not a usefull thing,,,and we can't live without... When you see them you are just a foam.. and you wont sleep that night at home.. All your dreams will be about you both together... But after its too late,,,you'll be alone forever... And you have to live your life with a heart break.. although you are sure its not your mistake.. It's all on you,,a major waste of time... Any way,,after all,,I ...

نظر إلي...و بعينين حائرتين سألني..من أكون.. !! أولا تعرفني.. ؟؟،يامن أوصلني حد الجنون؟ يامن جعلني أعيش في دنيا ألأوهام ولم يكف عن زيارتي في المنام...في كل الأحلام و علمني سحر كلام العيون ! إني السماء في وسعها...و وكار الطيور إني العشق في ذاته...من حب و فتور إني مالم تعرفه عن الحياة و القرون إني من إحتوتك في قلبها...و علمتك الحنين و من أرضعتك من عشقها..بمرور السنين إني من كل الألوان و الأشكال و الفنون! إني صوت تغريد البلابل..و الفيضانات و الزلازل بل إني الطاقة ألأبدية..بلا موصل أو عازل إني ملاكك الحارس...و القلب الحنون! أوتظل تسألني ؟..ألم تعرف من أكون..؟! إني التي تمنتك...و أحبت كبريائك إني التي تحملت غرورك...و أشكال عنادك إني الروح الحاوية...و الجسد الذي بك مسكون! و لست أبدا ناسية...بل دارية بما سيكون إني جريحة هذا العصر...وليدة تلك السنون معاشرة كل الخلائق...و أهل السجون إني حياتك يا عمري...مالكة الأشجار و الغصون و لكن حقا سؤال يراودني..>> فمن أكون ؟

Ding..Ding..Ding I heard the ring,, Tik..Tik..Tok you went to take a look,, Crak..Crak..Crok You did the door's unlock,, Blah..Blah..Blah heard you talking with someone,,then "MUWAH" "I miss you so much baby"..her voice said "Me too honey"..you replied "Come in,,it's cold out side",,you added Tok..Tok..Tok,she came..then you chatted Chooor..Blowmb..Blowmb you put the ice,,then "here's your cup" "Oh nice,,you made that??"" You said "sure,,just for you",,I couldn't understand I made it for you,not for her!! You added " you saw my new car"?? CAR??,,thought you have a bike!! you said "ya,,the same one that you like"... "Really??,,can I take a look??" you said "Sure",,then heard the doors lock.. You said "wait a minute baby,,I wanna make a call".. I heard your gasp.then saw the duration of the call...!!

My heart is in love..?????? how is that my little dove..?????? It promised never to miss.. never 'll beat for someone else.. I saw it my self locking the door.. and I'm sure it said "No love any more".. My darling..how come is that..??????? I just can't understand.. Who is he..and what he's trying to do..?? what's his shape like,,tell me do you know..?? ******** Baby dove please deliver my letter.. tell my heart never do like the past times,,and treat him better.. Say "you are not made of glass,,he can't break you".. but still be awake,,watch whatever he is trying to do.. Just tell the truth,,never be shy.. don't keep looking at the time he say good bye.. Tell it although it broke our deal..I'm not mad.. but forgetting our big love 'll make me sad.. Remind my heart that he always has a place inside.. where he can feel safe,warm..where he can hide.. Baby dove..just tell my heart finally I say good bye.. and it should use my steps.....

There's so much things I love in life.. But the most are the things I dont like.. I hate to be treated like invisible.. I hate when they don't care,,while it's unbelievable.. I hate to be so wrong when they are so right.. I hate the fact that I miss you every night.. I hate when guys always lie.. and when they pretend from the love they will die.. I hate when I see you passing through.. and when my eyes can't get enough of you.. I hate when I'm the only one to blame.. I hate when they treat me like I have done a shame.. I hate every new year's eve when I pray. .and when I don't commet with a word I say.. I hate when every body looks at me.. and you pretend like you can't see.. I hate when I fake my feelings.. and when I hear words I don't know their meanings.. I hate to be their little spoiled one.. and when I'm punished for things I've never done.. And there's something I hate too.. It's the fact that I'm still in love with you.....

I thought guys are all bad.. I thought all want to make me mad.. But since I add a new page to my life.. I killed all my old ideas with a knief.. Man..how could a girl like me live without them..?? How can I start a day without looking at him..?? How can I enjoy eating unless they surrounded me.. Love to feel like I'm a little drope in a sea.. How can I sleep peacefully unless they were in my dream.. Imagining my self with one of them having an ice cream How can I smile unless I heard them jocking.. How could my heart be opend again unless they were knocking.. How could I know what the smell of roses and fruit.. Unless I was close enough to smell the perfums they put.. And how could I be alive and survive.. Unless they were in my life..!! So cool to look and keep looking.........all the day.. Trying to find who is Mr.perfect in any way.. Some are cool with what they wear.. Some are spicial with a head so bair.. Some are tall with a shorten pants.. Some are cute with a soften hands....

All I have in this world is a body..& a broken heart All I'm is a remaining of a human been cut in 1000 part And the story didn't even end However I'm gonna apologize or spend It wont be finished by a love inside me need to be alive a love I dreamed to be true..for that I survive And now I only know..that its written on my face that the past wont be forgetten..& what happened wont be replaced It was a story..I lived in with all I could..everyday but time didn't like this..& I have to obay To let it go..never had a chance for a good bye And it doesn't matter if I'll live after or die it doesn't matter if I'm still chasing..cause it faded away I was a fool to believe..now it's time to pay ******************************************** A story of a dead jack..is always there..is always behind I can't get or even let..it's blooing my mind A story of a black rose..throughed in the graveyard alone It can't be alive..or even make the l...

Many years went.. a lot of time I spent Thought that could heal my pain then I wont love again I walked many years alone Heard people of my own And now I just met you.. You did your best to let it show You still caring about your own sack And want to come back..!! Finally now I got you my whole dreams came true I still cant believe it its so strange..maybe a little bit I kept wondering how come is that How can it all go bad I asked you to explain.. why are you back..the reason,the mean I couldn't believe my lovely jack.. now is back..!! I started to break the built when happiness took me to the end I thought too much about then my love was killed by my doubt I couldn't see how was that so sweet My heart stopped the beat..!! I spent whole life loving without you and it just disappeared when I got you I spent years can't forget I really shocked cause now I can let You said you can get any girl to love you but you 'll never find someone loves you as I do You felt proud to ...

Any sweet love words remind me of you.. And I cared about you....Long ago! I remember every whisper and touch and they are sweet by you.. And I hope you could see....Long ago! My dear who told you that I cant forget about you??.. Days and nights I lived just for you....Long ago! But I promise if you going to come back I will love you.. And I wondered would you remember me too....Long ago! I tried to tell you how I still need you.. But Im so weak you knew....Long ago! Come to me and let me be with you.. I dreamed of you and your eyes....Long ago! You know I love when Im beside you.. Its like the world disapeared between me and you....Long ago! Always on my mind,and time killed me and you.. You knew I need you....Long ago! Do you remember when my eyes speak to you??.. And my jealousy on you....Long ago! Im just dreamig of the day when I can see you.. But your sack is all what I cared about....Long ago! Whatever happens jack,how much Im gonna need you.. I knew its imposible to get you aga...

W hat if I was a different girl which you like..?? What if I learned how to ride a bike..?? What if I didn't ignore you or feel shy..?? What if I always shake your hands with a "HI"..?? What if I didn't listen to a word they say..?? What if I called you at home everyday..?? What if I could tell you for all you did "THANK YOU"..?? What if I replied you once with "LOVE YOU TOO"..?? What if I didn't let 4 years pass us through..?? What if I told you I really care about you..?? What if I faced you with the truth that I hate your family..?? and that I talk with your brothers daily..?? What if I could explain I did all of that just for you..?? What if you could forgive me and I forgive you..?? What if I told you that I know about your cheating..?? and that I knew this girl will leave you bleeding..?? and that I'm so mad about that..?? What if I told about us my mum and dad..?? What if I was looking like the one who took your heart..?? What if I f...

When I lay back at night and I turn off my orange light Then right before I close my eyes it comes to my mind to realize that I'm the reason why you went and what I said I didnt meant I know you wont come back to me but i wish if you just could see I know I have done you a wrong but baby I thought our love is strong Nothing can worth what we had and I can love you more than that I know you wont come back you really made this time and left me...jack But why I cant do anything or say to let you know I regret that everyday I know you hated my doubts and questions but baby..we never judge any one by what he mentions I wanted to show you that I need you here you were my every thing..my dear I know that I'm out of your heart..and that's is fine hope you know forever you are in mine I just miss you.. I miss you baby so much I miss your eyes and touch I miss your whisper and smile,too I miss the perfume you used to put on you I miss the way you put your hands in your pockets as you...

Sometimes... Some people.., they may come to your life..and go so quickly fixing all your problems.. helping you without even you know.. just like a cool breeze..in a spring dayz.. passes you in minute..in which you feel happy and fresh in your whole body.. Then you may feel like your own the wrold between your hands.. in that minute it passed you on.. but after its gone.. everything will get back to what it was on.. Then may one day...if the weather start getting hotter.. you may remember them..and wish if they can come back again.. and may you do your best to get them back.. just as this cool breeze as those cool people.. And one day..people should give their fevors back...!!

He wants me to describe him to you... and here I'm going to let you know... Handsome...Gentel..like a wave he moves.., Has got an angel eyes take you wherever he loves His sweet smile...like the morning smiles to you His voice...His singing...like a bird talks and chat with you His lovely soul rose me high...and took me slow But that's not why I loved him...you want know?? When he let me feel something I cant see His weakness towards me...his missing to me When I found in his words kindness which made me free Then his looks called me...they really took me When I discovered love and passion in his eyes When you are thirsty wait,you will drink from his nights When he hold you tight taking all your fears When he whisper a "Good Night"...right in your ears When you feel safety while you holding his arm When he take you so close...doing you no harm I wish if your eyes and heart were in the place of mine If you could feel what I felt...we can go back in time Then you may be...

Im living on a reminiscence was between us long ago.. and calling high "where are you"?? Do you know when Im beside you what I feel ?? when Im looking to your eyes what I need to say real ?? ....how beautiful is the world when Im with you Oh,my every thing I love you Do you remember when we firstly met?? and when you broke what was built... Can you remember our first call ?? and when you through me into the wall!! I cant forget how you used to look at me.. and now you really cant recognize me I miss when you be at morning waiting for me but now I looked for you every where,and I cant see I will remember you..till I die please remember me..and dont let your life pass you by If it was without memories of me & you.. when you smile at the sun..so beautiful as you do Im so tired..cant see standing at the edges of a memory Every time I see you I want to shout.. babe,there is alot of things you dont know about I dont want to let go.. just need you to know.. when we are together....

Its really sad,but its true they cant see you as I do they are always searching for reasons to make you apart because they never reached your heart But I Know When you smile how life be & how it feels when its just you & me it doesnt matter what people want to see I will stay with you as I want..Im free Because I Know You are an angel came from the sky rising all my standers high I cant tell what changes in my world you have done so please...dont ask me to pick one And I Know When you are stepping where you know your heart is going to be broken but you never give up..or give a chance to be mistaken you are made of light to help people go through just if they could really know you Also I Know How when your babe soul is always in pain and you always make it and smile again but why when you always being mentioned they keep saying you are different but they never knew whats the meaning to be you and the world treat them as they do hope if they could once know its not a crime if yo...

She wanted me to tell her all my feelings all my problems and all my seetings So can I do it and tell her all of that?? about how my life crashed and my broken heart? How I used to feel pain and cry at night how I needed him only to stay by my side how I cant do anything but sit to remember what happened at that time and what is in december Howit felt at my first time I fall in love and when he said "rose,thats enough" how I wanted to kill him then I said "NO" cause he is the first and the last I told him I love you how it was when he first called and she picked up and how she struggled with us to make us stop then when I tried to get him back and fix it with some letters in my bag and she caught it can I tell her how much I hated her at that time? cause she made me love like doing a crime then when I found a chance to meet him and with me she went and kept looking around like a message not sent then I began to survive just to forget so I let all my dreams with him ...

TAITANIC

Jack.... I need you because I dont want you to loose.. I was there infront of your eyes..and you couldnt choose.. But whatever I did..you are my real love.. Which I believe that God sent it to me..from above.. Cause no matter how hard I tried to survive.. I cant live without you in my life.. People are talking about us all the time.. And looking at me like I have done a crime.. They say you are not honest..your love is not true I tell them beside that Im loving you.. Once...I dreamed about you in a holley night.. You were in a shape of white & strong light.. You kept saying "I need you,dont go" So I did...why??..I dont know Now I just compaired that with the reality.. And I found it a dream of a bad quality.. So dear..now I will wait for God to make me forget you.. But till then I will be always behind you.. Never will let anything hurt you or make you sad.. So,if anything happened..or someone treated you bad.. You will know when you wake up to find all is gone.. You will...

Did you hear it....or should I say again Are you sure you heard me right??.... cause I will do you no pain Your eyes had taken me from my world to be with you.. And always my heart pushing me to say "I miss you".. But my babe soul is afraid from knowing you are not for me.. when nothing can let you stay....you are free!! But your eyes are a diamond windows of a golden heart.. Always telling mine"we should never be apart" Baby,you are for my dark life a deep light.. You are the reason I stay awake at night.. I know its really true,when you are so near.. And Im shouting so high.."where are you dear".. Im afraid that my heart suffers like that again or more.. Then I live all my coming days like that for certain sure.. Who can replace my heart the second I met you.. And what is the taste of life if it became without you.. Can you tell me why my pain for you is nothing.. And days went and Im missing your face every morning.. Days..I dont know why they went so f...

To my babe.... Whenever you feel lonely, Whenever you feel sad, Whenever time hit you roughly, When people treat you bad, Wherever you are, Whenever you feel pain, When you are in a trouble, When you think you wont live again, When people br mean to you, When darkness want to get you, When you dont know who, When you dont know what to do, When you are confused how to let them know, When someone loves you just for show, When your degrees numbers get low, When you want to do something and you know you cant do so, When your heart tell you to stay but you go, When you cant choose one of two, When you regret something you didnt do, **** Then when you feel happy, When you smile, When you tell a joke, When you change your style, When a beautiful girl love you, When your dream comes true, When you succeed in your exam, When you watch a baby grow, When you sleep peacfully at night, When you see the morning light, When you get a new friend, When you see a star, When your message be sent, When yo...